Star Princess

Star and I did a handmade exchange: here is what I sent her.






[sterling silver, freshwater pearls, Czech glass]

My surprise from her is in the mail and I am sooo excited!!

"If you were a mermaid, I was the sea."

Francesca Lia Block's "Wasteland" is beautiful and just broke my heart, broke my heart into little bitty pieces.

"You were just a boy on a bed in a room, like a kaleidoscope is a tube full of bits of broken glass. But the way I saw you was pieces refracting the light, shifting into an infinite universe of flowers and rainbows and insects and planets, magical dividing cells, pictures no one else knew."

ZZZ

Another post when I ought to be sleeping.
I can't decide if I have unrealistic expectations for love/men/romance, or if I just know what I want. If I'm saving myself trouble or screwing myself over.

Ok.
Let's be honest.
I love Wolverine.
How can I not be being unrealistic?
*sigh*

I know what I want, but cannot for the life of me figure out how to find it. Him. Why is it so hard to meet people? Or the right people. "This city's a mess."

Share the Love

Apparently none of my Facebook friends are game, so please comment if you'd like to join in!

The first five people to comment on this post will get something made by me.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations so please read carefully:

- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make.
- What I create will be just for you.
- It will be done this year (2009).
- You have no clue what it is going to be. It will be something made in the real world and not something over the internet. It may be a mixed CD, a pair of earrings, a cupcake or a family of paper peace cranes. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure! (not me either)

Here's the fine print:
In return, all you need to do is post this text into a note (Facebook) or blog post of your own and make 5 things for 5 others.

Let the crafting, lovin & sharing begin!

Warm my heart

I made a list of good things to think about, look forward to, dream about, to help me get through my last horrid semester at SFU. I thought it was worth sharing:

magical cave : love stories : wolves : handmade journals : handmade adornments : quilts : hot drinks in favoured ceramics : faeries : pillows : bears : coloured conte : figure drawing

I'll add to that:

jewel-toned beads : soul sisters : vintage shopping : kissing : clean sheets : dresses : sequined "Dorothy" shoes : puppies : drawings of girls showing their undergarments

Well you get the idea. Someone who does a lovely job of that last item on my list is Caitlin: you should visit her shop because it is lovely (and so is she).

What is your list?

Do unicorns exist now?

[it's possible!!]

"This girl is absolutely fabulous. Not only is she beautiful and intelligent, but she is also one of the nicest people I know. I am positive she will find the guy of her dreams because there aren't many girls this awesome out there."

My friend wrote that about me and it is one of the nicest and most unexpected things. I feel so warm and fuzzy right now, haha.
I hope he is right.

My mind's in a cafuffle and all a-buzz right now...I've gone on a few dates lately and nothing's felt right so far, for lack of a better (longer) description...

I just cut the paragraph I was writing to describe this ... I think it's too personal, haha. Anyhow, I'm trying to sort out my feelings for a friend of mine... things are complicated, but he makes me happy, and I wonder if I should just trust in that and go for it ... I'm afraid one of us will end up getting hurt. Thus my indecision/confusion/constant thinking.

Hurrr. Bed-time. No more internet ramblings for now.
xxo.

narwhals

Life can be so random and unexpected. And nice.

My love life is either dull/dead or completely ridiculous and often hard to keep a handle on...
There is rarely an in-between, it seems.

I had a bit of a snow fight last night. It can't be called a snow-ball fight because the snow wouldn't stick to any form, just fell away to powder. We ran down Vancouver streets at 1am throwing snow and laughing. It was lovely.

Melodrama

Ug.
I am at that point again where I am sort of feeling like maybe it's my fault & I'm flawed...
So ok we're all flawed, but regardless...
My more "sensible" side likes to think that isn't the case.
That I shouldn't take other peoples' issues, insecurities, mistakes and meanness personally.
That I just haven't met someone I fit well with in awhile, but it will happen and it will be good.
That seems so unrealistic right now.

Sometimes I am so emo it hurts to read my own writing.
I guess looking for Garden State/Belle & Sebastien/Juno/Snow & Bigby/Go-Getter is possibly unrealistic, or at least a slim possibility.
I am hopeless.

And yet I have two dates this week, Patrick and Sam are still around & RF appears or messages at the oddest times and leaves me wondering ... So I guess I haven't given up yet.

"Don't you know - there is no - modern romance"
- Yeah Yeah Yeah's

I'm getting sick and should go to bed

Instead I am blogging. (Nothing new to see here...)

When things go awry, do you sometimes wonder where you went wrong? Was it something gradual? Or was it one thing - one thing you said or did that was so wrong and yet you had no clue. Maybe you just took one step too far...

[asofterworld.com]

I have dated/gone out with/been smitten with/fallen for too many boys. The reasons are plentiful. Most of them no longer merit a second thought. But there are a few I wonder about.
What if ... maybe I ... if I'd only ...
Sometimes I feel like a walking cliché (apparently I am writing like one).

Sometimes I feel it is incurable.
Sometimes I think I bring it on myself, but somehow cannot stop myself...

Emote

Here's what's up with me & on my radar as of late...

My friend posted this on her facebook page recently, and it seems everyone in the world has now seen it, but just in case you've been hanging in a cave recently...
The story of Christian the lion is pretty spectacular! It made me super teary in a good way. I don't know if I have seen a man that emotional before! At least in real life...check out the vid if you haven't already. It's short and totally worth it!

My mom got diagnosed with diabetes a few weeks ago. So that's really sucking! We don't really have a history of it in the family, she's slim and active and she eats pretty well, so it was completely unexpected and the doctor was really surprised and apologetic about the news. She put my mom on some pills but unfortunately nothing has changed yet. Anyhow, there are a couple different things they are going to try (of course). Now I might have to worry about diabetes, of course, but haven't yet convinced myself to be any more wary of my diet.
I eat well-ish...

I went on a date with Ryan this past weekend and he is directing The Laramie Project, which will be playing in Vancouver near the end of December. A bunch of loonies known as The Westboro Baptist Church have said that they will come out here to protest the play. Because apparently they have nothing better to do with their time than to come over to Canada from the US so that they can spread their hatred around.
Anyhow. If you ever wonder why I question humanity on occassion, they would be a good example. The cast of the production is organizing a peaceful anti-hate rally on November 28, at the time that the protest is supposed to occur, so if anyone reading this is from Vancouver you can contact me for info.

Ryan is growing on me. Sometimes these infatuations don't last very long for me as I get all excited about 3 things and then later reality sets in ... but I am always hopeful. So ... I am hopeful :)

Polar Love

I would be happy to spend my days making treasuries. They are stories in picture form (at least mine are).
I got one today: it's called Polar Love.
It isn't just global warming melting the ice caps...
Ha! Ok, well anyhow, you can check it out here. I think it's fabulous (of course I do).
xxo.

Wolf Romance

[Embrace by Isabel Samaras]

Ok, I have been trying to make this latest treasury for at least two weeks now [the title of this post is linked to it]. I kept checking for when a spot would open up, only to get distracted in those last crucial 15 minutes or so and totally miss my chance! So frustrating!! Anyhow, I finally snagged a spot. It tells a love story. With wolves. It is pure enjoyment (at least for me!).

Here are some pieces that were under consideration, but didn't make it for one reason or another (mainly because they were already sold, perhaps because I've seen them recently on the front page and didn't want to repeat ... also a few expired so now I will never find them again!):
beautiful Snow White, wolf on red, red wood heart pendant ( I reallllly wanted to use this one!), wolf pack and child.
Hope you've enjoyed. Welcome to my world.

It's in the air, I think

After some trouble with the last thing I made (namely that I dislike it), I have made something lovely. It's a double-stranded (my new fave thing, apparently) bracelet with frosted Chinese square glass beads and other frosted glass beads: it's called "Something Like Love." It's a delight. It will be posted Sunday, I guess. I won't have a chance to photograph it to be ready before then.
I'm happily daydreaming about what might be with someone I met recently, and a customer at my store seems to have taken interest too, so I think it's in the air.
Summer lovin, it's true.

at the bottom of everything

Bright Eyes keeps breaking my heart.
In a good way.
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