"We'll put the lonesome on the shelf"

I've got some new stuff for the shop, I just haven't found the time yet to photograph and post it! I'm holding some of it in the photo (I know, I promised no more bad photos ... sorry!). The pearly ones in the back are two pretty pretty anklets, the dark one which you can't really see is a nifty men's bracelet made with dark wood beads and jet glass leaves, and the one in front is made with square salwag seed beads and little turquoise stone beads. I especially like that bracelet!

In other news ... I was freaking something awful about this thing with my friend. I spent last night convincing myself not to call him and trying to chill, although I was wildly unsuccessful. In chilling: I did manage not to call. Part of my worries was that he would just disappear. It's happened before. But he didn't!! So I'm feeling much less paranoid now. It's good. We talked on the phone tonight and it was nice. And we have plans for after Christmas. Can't wait can't wait.

Do unicorns exist now?

[it's possible!!]

"This girl is absolutely fabulous. Not only is she beautiful and intelligent, but she is also one of the nicest people I know. I am positive she will find the guy of her dreams because there aren't many girls this awesome out there."

My friend wrote that about me and it is one of the nicest and most unexpected things. I feel so warm and fuzzy right now, haha.
I hope he is right.

My mind's in a cafuffle and all a-buzz right now...I've gone on a few dates lately and nothing's felt right so far, for lack of a better (longer) description...

I just cut the paragraph I was writing to describe this ... I think it's too personal, haha. Anyhow, I'm trying to sort out my feelings for a friend of mine... things are complicated, but he makes me happy, and I wonder if I should just trust in that and go for it ... I'm afraid one of us will end up getting hurt. Thus my indecision/confusion/constant thinking.

Hurrr. Bed-time. No more internet ramblings for now.
xxo.

Melodrama

Ug.
I am at that point again where I am sort of feeling like maybe it's my fault & I'm flawed...
So ok we're all flawed, but regardless...
My more "sensible" side likes to think that isn't the case.
That I shouldn't take other peoples' issues, insecurities, mistakes and meanness personally.
That I just haven't met someone I fit well with in awhile, but it will happen and it will be good.
That seems so unrealistic right now.

Sometimes I am so emo it hurts to read my own writing.
I guess looking for Garden State/Belle & Sebastien/Juno/Snow & Bigby/Go-Getter is possibly unrealistic, or at least a slim possibility.
I am hopeless.

And yet I have two dates this week, Patrick and Sam are still around & RF appears or messages at the oddest times and leaves me wondering ... So I guess I haven't given up yet.

"Don't you know - there is no - modern romance"
- Yeah Yeah Yeah's

"Men are always sincere, they just change sincerities, that's all."

I was chatting with my best friend tonight.
The basics of tonight's lesson?
1. If you like someone, talk to them. In all likelihood, they won't bite (at least until the first or second date).
2. If you've been seeing someone, or have said you will, or some other similar situation, and have decided, for whatever reason, that you no longer want to talk to or see this other person, tell them. Really. Tell them the truth, or some version of it. Tell them you don't have the time to date, tell them you think they're freaking crazy, whatever. But don't just ignore them in the hopes that they will eventually go away. It's cowardly and indecent.
Thus ends tonight's lesson.
♥